It’s been a long 14 months off… I had my daughter Felicity Rose on 31st July 2017 weighing a tiny 4lb 4oz (very small for full term, I know) and instantly loved motherhood despite the sleepless nights, dirty nappies and changing body. Of course it's been tough and emotionally draining but I thought, ‘this is it, this is what I was meant to do’. However, in the last couple of months I have felt a yearning to get back to work.

 

I’ve missed the tap of the laptop keys, the communication with customers and emails with suppliers. The feeling of excitement as I organised childcare with family and friends grew as the time to ‘get back to work’ edged closer… now it’s here and the mum guilt is just all consuming.

 

I feel bad for loving this time away from her. Guilty for not spending every waking minute with my little human. I don’t want her to know how nice it is to be able to open a laptop without her climbing up my leg to see what I’m looking at.

 

Will this feeling pass? Well, I hope so as I have no intention on going back. It feels like being re-born into working life and I’m genuinely excited.

 

A new working life for this guilt stricken, anxious yet VERY excited Mumma!

 

 

Laura and Felicity at wedding